In chapter three of Fun Home by Allison Bechdel, there is a scene where Allison and her girlfriend Joan have a visit with Allison’s mother, Helen, after the funeral of her father, Bruce. In this particular scene, Helen is giving away books from Bruce’s library and tells Joan she can have anything from the collection. Joan chooses a book of poems, which Helen is excited to say contains her favorite poem “Sunday Morning” by Wallace Stevens. She then reads the first stanza out loud with what I saw as a great understanding, so much so that Joan tried to convince Helen that she should keep it. (here is a link to the poem if you would like to read it: https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/poems/13261/sunday-morning)
The poem “Sunday Morning” is about a woman who is staying home instead of going to church on a Sunday morning. She seems both guilty for skipping church but also extremely appreciative of the calm of a Sunday morning that she would have missed had she gone. Throughout the poem, she is also seeming to have some sort of realization of the role of religion in her life, and wondering why she should spend all her time focusing on religion and getting into heaven, instead of appreciating all the wonderful things in life that come before heaven. In a way, she is viewing going to church and focusing on the afterlife as giving herself away to it, instead of giving her life to things that are much more real to her, like nature and the earth.
At first glance, it was hard to identify the connection Allison sees between this poem and her mothers life. Allison tells readers that “Sunday Morning” is about crucifixion and that Helen possibly liked the poem because it correctly represented her relationship with religion, as in being Christian more in character rather than actual practice. Additionally, Allison hints that Helen enjoys it because she understands sacrifice, most likely meaning within her marriage. Allison even compares the contrast between the pleasant Sunday morning and morbid thoughts of the afterlife with the contrast between Bruce’s obsession with perfection in appearances and the secrets he was hiding.
I also think there are some other connections to be found. For one, I wonder if in some sense it’s symbolic that Helen is reading this poem out loud following Bruce’s funeral. The fact that the poem is about enjoying your life before death is sad to think about considering Bruce most likely spent all his life in a sort of secret anxiety. It’s also symbolic because I can imagine Helen having a sort of somber freedom now that Bruce is dead. Now she can find a fulfillment in life that was impossible to achieve with Bruce controlling every aspect of their appearances.